Sunday, March 27, 2011

Still no conversation

It has been 2 days and still nothing from the husband. 

He finally showed up around 12am Thursday night. Sat in the couch with his dirty clothes and smell and annouced: "I'm home"

I briefly glanced away from my movie and said "Ok" 

He sat there for a few more minutes and then went to take a shower and eat. 

He eventually went to bed. 

I am not sure I felt anything. 

A good man would have walked into that door after being gone gambling away out life savings, and said. I'm here. I'm sorry and I know we need to talk. 

It's going on day 3 now and nothing. He is willing to just go about as if he didn't just broke our trust and betrayed me. 

He talks about the moles in the yard and ask me if the washing machine is working and tell me he put battery in the flashlights and he is going to the store etc. 

That is not important. What's important is that you come to me and discuss what happened. What you did to me. to our family! 

I feel like I shouldn't broach the subject and then at times I feel like I should (as always) go and say let's talk about what happened. 

Since he has been back our son has fallen ill with severe diarrhea and vomiting and i'm cleaning up yuck from floor and carpet and bedsheets being puked and pooped on and this man cannot find it in his heart to help me. 
To sit with his son
To feed him or give him a sip of water. 
All he can manage when he crawls out of bed at 5pm in the days is to ask if our son was feeling better! 

I feel so helpless. 
He has never helped me with the kids and it just sears me. 

But yes, tomorrow Sunday will be 3 days and still he can't find the balls to come and sit and talk about what he did. 



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