Is it depression or just resignation?

After Seven weeks, my husband is back from working overseas. I did miss him alot when he was gone. And as usual when he is gone I think of the things I'd love to see improve so much between us.

I wish our communication was alot better where it was easy. When he returned I thought if I just be honest and let him know how I was feeling, that it would help. But I notice whenever I tried to share, speak, he'd just shut me down. I did try for a bit and then just realize, it's not working, so I've withdrawn.

I was hoping if we were communicating better, then sex wouldn't be so much of one more chore I had to do. Since that didn't work out.

I've just decided because I cannot deal with the fights about sex, I'll just offer up myself every other day so he'll be happy.

At this point there is not much else I can do but talk myself into it and hope his life feels better.

And then again, he works hard for this family so it's the least I can do.

Sound detrimental I know, but at this time in my life, this is an element of me that I've come to and while it might change, it's what will be done for now.

Then again, there is this depression that I cannot shake and it's been going on two weeks now. I usually never get depressed and if I did, it lasted a day or two and I'm back bouncing off the walls.

But C'est la vie